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Sunrise in my rearview mirror

Nobody's laughing now
21 July
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How a lifelong compulsive journaler became a less compulsive one.

Fanfic journal: _lavinia_
Original fic journal: original_lavi

Co-author of: freac_camp and deewinchester


No Worst, There is None

No worst, there is none. Pitched past pitch of grief,
More pangs will, schooled at forepangs, wilder wring.
Comforter, where, where is your comforting?
Mary, mother of us, where is your relief?

My cries heave, herds-long; huddle in a main, a chief
Woe, world-sorrow; on an age-old anvil wince and sing -
Then lull, then leave off. Fury had shrieked 'No ling-
-ering! Let me be fell: force I must be brief'.

O the mind, mind has mountains; cliffs of fall
Frightful, sheer, no-man-fathomed. Hold them cheap
May who ne'er hung there. Nor does long our small
Durance deal with that steep or deep. Here! creep,
Wretch, under a comfort serves in a whirlwind: all
Life death does end and each day dies with sleep.

-Gerard Manley Hopkins
, 1967 impala, adrien brody, all the fictional women you hate, alucard/integra, ancient world, animorphs, aristocracy, artemis hellsing, arya stark, avery dewitt hellsing, barack obama, barbara kingsolver, bazaars, being a ridiculous anglophile, being metaphorically impenetrable, bisco hatori, books, british accents, british royal family, cheesecake, christianity, daenerys, daenerys targaryen, dallas/johnny, damien rice, daydreaming, dean winchester, dean/sam, december's foggy breeze, devotion, dreary london, eating spaghetti in rome, elizabeth ii, eloquence, escapism, everlong, fakir, fictional sibling incest, forbidden love, foreign markets, forms, gray areas, harad, harry potter, hellsing, hellsing-ing, het, history, hurt/comfort, icon collecting, icons, integra, integra hellsing, integra/alucard, integra/kyouya, irish dancing, j.k. rowling, jamaican accents, jared padalecki, jensen ackles, johnny depp, jon stewart, karate, kittens, kyouya, kyouya ootori, kyouya's shoulderbones, lavinia/escapism, lily evans, lily/severus, lily/snape, lord of the rings, martial arts, mary evans, materialism, minerva/tom, money, music, no such place, ouran, ouran host club, ouran theatre of love, prayer, princess tutu, protective older brothers, queen elizabeth, rachel coming back, rasputina, reading, ribbons, rock music, rock-climbing in corsets, rose evans, ryan adams, sam winchester, sam/dean, severus/lily, sherlock holmes, sir integra hellsing, sleep, snape/lily, solid&etc, supernatural, tamaki, tamaki's inner mind theatre, tamaki/haruhi, the brothers winchester, the mother of dragons, theatre, time magazine, tom/minerva, torch the moon, tori amos, walter, wincest, wit, writing, youth, ♀♀, ♀♂, , ♂♀, ♂♂